It's Not a Skill. It's a Will.

I often talk myself that i ain't appropriate to do a thing. I say that there are people better than me. Feel too shy to come forward or even deliver my opinion of something we talk. I often say that i hate myself, feel so disgust of who am i. It is called self drowning. I always wonder if i was her, a great person, brave to show herself. Woaah, how could i be like that? Impossible. So i just live a flat life without hoping any big dream. But it was me in the past. After wondering to be other person, i realized that everybody has their own weakness, also their own fate. It's not a same. So why i still wish for useless things? Why don't i start to list my dreams? It's not a skill, it's a will. I had my geography class oneday, the teacher whom i respected always tell much wise says. Once upon a time, he asked us something simple-but-meaningful thing like this, "what have you got so far for this 24 hours?". I daydream suddenly, he is right, what have i got so far? no, i thought further. What have i got as long as i live? keeping a self drowning? or being jealous of other people's life? i thought once again, how useless are those. Sometimes, people are brave to show themselves only when they know that they are really able to do it, so when they don't know how to do it, they won't. It is exactly common things to hear, but have you ever thought how other people who are not really famous among many friends wants to do it too but they have too big prestige, too shy, or even really can't? so they just keep quite. Indeed, we don't know exactly how they respond to it but, from this phenomenon, we have to make it as a self-encouragement, when we think we are able to do it, just go. If we can't, just try! Don't feel so small, even tho there are many people who belittle us, ignore it. It is only making lost our courage. So, i don't talk about how important we are to have a skill of a things we like, i talk about how excited we want to gain it, it is the most important thing. Then, we have to believe, if we can't do a thing, it's not talking about skill. It's a will.